Sunday, March 13, 2005

paint the whole world with a rainbow...

...it was after the famous porn video that rod, jane and freddy's career took a turn for the worse...

Today I am feeling angry, its been building up all weekend and i think it may manifest itself over the next day or so in one huge abhorrent outburst. I am trying to control it but everytime i think of something in particular (which i can't mention here) it gets worse and worse...i alweays tend to do this, dwell on something that upsets or annoys me and then i just let fly. I will keep you informed...

The lovely Rufus Wainwright was on telly for a whole 65 minutes last night on a magical documentary...if you missed it, it's a shame. He is truly talented and Messiah like...

Lots of people have asked me why i kept writing nobhead the other day...sorry, that was an in joke for Steve and i shouldn't have really put it in...well its not really fair if i can't tell you about it is it!

Well as you have seen from her comments over the last couple of days it looks like lisa no longer wants me to marry her. I must say that i am as shocked and suprised as you all are and didn't see it coming at all, i feel like i have been hit with a sledge hammer. I have yet to speak to her on the subject but she seemed to be laughing and giggling in her last comment. I suddenly feel very used and dirty, i have had my gayness sullied by a woman and i think that will be an inset trauma for the rest of my days. So it is true, i am all set for becoming a wizzened old man living in a housing association bedsit...i really can't wait...

Today i am just going to say 'fuck you' to the world and stay cocooned in rooftop world, i was out on the roof this morning planting the rest of my varigated golden green bamboo and other plants, it was very calming and invigorating in the wind, i felt at one with nature...i love this time of year when its sunny and cold, it makes me happy...except today...today i am angry...(return to beginning of cyclical blog)

...and after sweep had ravaged sue 'the sooty show' was suddenly taken off the air...

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

Oh no the volcano is about to errupt! Could you contain yourself until Tues/Wed as these are my days off. Don't think I am making light of the situation, but I feel it's good to type/talk about things, I don't want to comment on the rest of the blog and ignore the part that is really important to you.
Steve has had coffee today(oops, should I mention this here?), so I understand the nobhead bit as I am sure many others do.
I was looking forward to a wedding this year, not mine, but yours and Lisa's, are you mad Lisa, turning down this fantastic man, oh god, I'm now thinking about that radio 2 programme. I need to concentrate the mind and stop thinking about things I just can't have.
Love you loads, keep up the good work, Gx

Anonymous said...

Hi Sweetie
I never said i would not marry you - i love you loads
Lisa xxxxxxxx

Anonymous said...

Oh god Neil is about to have another "teddy out of the cot time" For christ sake get a grip and stop being such a great big queen.Get over whatever it is and enjoy your life.

Anonymous said...

Good grief Brother nothing in the world can be that bad that we have to wait for Mount Etna to erupt !!

Believe me there is someone worse of than you.

As for you and Lisa getting married stay deeply loving friends you'd only make each other miserable !!

Love you both

Sis xxx

Anonymous said...

Lisa, or anyone else who can help, how many "BOB'S" should a girl own?
Gx

Anonymous said...

What's a BOB then ??????

Anonymous said...

obviously as many as you can handle gina.
steve.