from lisas lips...

Wow the weather at the moment is fabulous – to stay in seems a crime so apologies for the lateness of the blog tonight. I was too busy enjoying the sun up at Neil’s. While I was there I did have a session in the stand up tanner and I have to say its very good nicely basted in 4 minutes can’t be bad.

At lot has happened since we last caught up. Neil, Matt and Marie and I went to London last Wednesday to the Lyric Theatre to see a play called ` Some girls are bigger than others. ` (20 songs from The Smiths) We all sat there and looked at the stage and then for the next 90 minutes I have to say I sat there and thought what the **** is going on – it was very strange. But I did not want to seem like I did not know so said nothing. Neil sat next to me and was totally enthralled, which made me nervy as I thought he gets this and I don’t. After the show we left and Neil nipped off to the boys room. I asked Marie what did she think we both then burst into laughter as neither of us had any idea what we had seen and both felt the same that if you shut your eyes and just listened to the music and lyrics it was really good. Sometime later I asked Neil what he thought and I was relieved to hear that he had not really got a clue what the play was about. (I have to say that even the Evening Standard review had no idea what they had seen either) so I don’t feel so bad now.

Imagine my surprise the next day when getting ready for work to hear that there have been bomb go off in London especially as the night before we were there, it makes you think how lucky we all are. Life is too short to worry about the future we should enjoy the here and now as we never know when the here and now will end. We all worry too much about the future and put off doing what we want to do now because we cant be spontaneous but what if this was your last day week or year would you still be the same or would you live for the moment. I know that if I could go back 10 or more years there are a few things I would have changed – but having said that I contradict myself because if I had the chance to change my life I would probably not be where I am today surrounded by family and friends that I care about in the here and now. Anyway enough of the soppy stuff I will end on a high I have had a few comments about the lack of a message to the beautiful message left me by Neil on Sunday. The song is one of my favourites and was played a lot on our Holiday. I was really touched by the gesture, so I am repaying the compliment and adding one that was another popular song that we would sing away too while lying on our sunbeds in the beautiful Eden that is Nueiweba and in 8 weeks we will be there again. I can’t wait!

If you're not the one
Then why does my soul feel glad today
If you're not the one
Then why does my hand fit yours this way
If you are not mine
Then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine
Would I have the strength to stand at all
I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away,
but I can't take it
I don't understand
If I'm not made for you

Then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay, in your life
If I don't need you
Then why am I crying on my bed
If I don't need you
Then why does your name resound in my head
If your not for me
Then why does this distance maim my life
If you're not for me
Then why do I dream of you as my man
I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray that you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away, but I can't take it
I don't understand
If I'm not made for you
Then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay, in your life
Cuz I miss you, body and soul, so, strong that it takes my breath away
And I breath you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
Cuz I love you whether its wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don't wanna run away, but I can't take it
I don't understand
If I'm not made for you
Then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay, in your life